Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Never Giving Up

Sometimes I draw inspiring words of wisdom from the most unlikely places. Like for tonight example, my 13 hour long work day has come to a close and I have finally have a few minutes to wind down and purge my mind of the days' events and drama. As I lay in my bed, laptop open, the pup snuggled up at my feet, I can hear MTV blaring in the background with Ke$ha's new realty show, My Crazy Beautiful Life in full swing. It was one of her opening monologues that caught my attention and sucked me in like those cheesy MTV shows often do. In her dialogue, Ke$ha was talking about how no matter what you do in life, some people are always going to try their hardest to destroy you. The only solution... stay focused on your dreams and make yourself the only one responsible for making sure they never end.

Work has been a constant battle for me lately. In the thick of summer concert season, pressure is on to push ticket sales and of course, that means marketing efforts are being scrutinized under a high powered  microscope. Working feverishly through lunches, firing off emails until ten o' clock at night and pounding the pavement to spread the word on the street is just a tiny glimpse into the life I've found myself living these past few weeks. Now a days, a 12 hour work day is welcomed compared to the usual 16 hours I've been pulling to make sure our shows are as highly visible as possible. As crazy as the hustle and bustle has become, I'm proud of myself for all I've managed to accomplished at the drop of a hat.

But lately, it's felt like the world is against me, pointing out all my flaws and errors, forgetting about all the progress I have managed to accomplish. Although I know I do have some allies, it seems like a certain group of people have been treating me like I'm a nut, or like I don't know what I'm doing. No recognition for the positives or how much I've been busting my ass, only criticism and comments about what I'm not doing well enough.

In my opinion, criticism is always welcomed in the work place. It helps you build a better you. But there is a way to say it so that it's helpful instead of hurtful. The truth is, I know what I'm doing and I'm doing it well. I have faith in myself and know others are just looking for a place to push blame so it doesn't reflect negatively on themselves. On my weakest days, I try to remember to be careful of the weary souls that are going to doubt me along the way. Because no matter what I do in my life, whether I'm doing well or struggling, there will always be someone out there trying to take it all away.

"...I won't run when bullets chase me, I will love when people hate me, I won't hush, no you can't make me. Send the dark but it won't break me, You can try but you can't change me..." - The Band Perry

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